Day 256

256/365, originally uploaded by Aaron LaRue.

I'm really starting to question why I pick up my camera.  

I enjoy it when I can make good pictures. I even enjoy it when I take good pictures (and trust me, there is a huge difference between taking and making). But lately I haven't had time to do either of those things. I used to feel like I was progressing as I got further into this project, but I feel like I've plateaued. I'm taking pictures for the sake of it, and it definitely shows. When I get stressed (like now, when I'm creeping towards finals) then I get blocked and nothing flows. Creativity is lacking and inspiration is almost nonexistent. I can't put anything into my camera and then I don't get anything out. If anything, it adds to my frustration. I don't like taking bad pictures, and I really don't like having to show them to people. And I don't have plans for any good pictures in the near future, which is usually what keeps me motivated. Lately I've been picking up my camera because I have to. I don't like quitting things and I feel like I'm way too far into this project to give up. And I know that if I did quit, I would be pissed at myself for a long time.


But if there were ever a day where I have wanted to throw in the towel, today was it.